Nothing but blue sky... A blend of thoughts, poetry, lyrics, travel anecdotes, anything that comes to mind mid-air, mid-stream, mid-thought about to take off ~ ...thoughts in flight

Wednesday, February 02, 2005

Laying Low for now

Through my recent travels, I've decided to lay low right now independent of everything else. This is not due to any one event or person - I just think I've been focusing on all the wrong things in life, looking to others to make me happy when it is I who needs to make myself happy, find things in life that fulfill me, give back where I have only taken in the past. I no longer want to look to someone else to fill the holes in me because that leads me nowhere. I need to fill them myself dealing with them head on, lightly, with a sense of humor, whole-heartedly, not running away anymore, not burying my head in the sand waiting for someone to rescue me. I'm exhausted, physically and emotionally drained. I need my rest, let things fall into place where they may, push and pull where I need to depending on the situation. Have faith basically, let it ride, and eventually I'll come up for air when I'm ready. Just wait and see.