Tendency to Run

I have a tendency to run when life, people, situations get too close, too close to my heart, bring up issues that I haven't dealt with yet, make me quiver inside. I put up walls to protect myself from getting hurt and then I slink away for awhile until I get some clarity. I come back when I have a better handle on how I feel, how to move forward, how to communicate and explain what just happened. Maybe I shouldn't say that I "run", instead I walk, I about-face, I put emotions on hold, I work to get perspective and wait for the light to come back when its ready, when I'm ready. I have faith. I believe that when life blows up, it all settles down again, and something grows from the trauma - fruits, flowers, bright vibrant colors, something more beautiful than might be imagined.